Go Sleep

And sometimes life hits you hard and reminds you of this fucking disease you carry in your stupid body and you feel like sleeping.

Just

Once the doctor said

I would never ever

be able to run a marathon

I suddenly felt like
running a marathon. 

Screaming Silence

And when you become silent

I will miss your yelling. 

Close the door behind you

I could just leave
walk away
and never look back.
Our story would be like
one of those dreams
you wake up
and can't remember much.

What is ist what is it what is it

What is crazier,

the world itself,

or the ones trying to understand it?

What is ist?

What?

Hm?

View

Look at me

I'm dissolving right in front of you

your yelling makes my skin peel off.

Look at me

I'm in pain 

bleeding tears.

Look at me

I'm trying to understand

what I have done wrong.

Look at me

I'm the one you claim to love

I'm the one

standing here 

dying slowly

looking at you. 

You make me feel

i've missed you.

i've missed the way you hug me

the way you taste in my mouth.

i've missed looking at you

knowing that you have been waiting

for me to get you

i've missed getting wet

and riding on you

as if there was no tomorrow

i've missed the way i feel afterwards

exhausted

dripping

breathless

cold feet on warm sand

i look at the horizon

waiting for you

the perfect wave

Sense Less Sense

I hate you because I love you.

How could you? How?

I saw it.

It made my whole body shake.

Like an earthquake

a storm in my head

and a landslide in my heart.

I couldn't breathe

I couldn't think

I couldn't believe it.

How could you? How?

I saw it.

Breaks

Running in circles

throwing stones on mirrors

hating to love you

crying to be understood

I drift off to a neverending dreamless sleep. 

Set me free

So you said you felt sorry for me

you worried I would be lost without you

I wouldn't know how to manage my life

I wouldn't have enough money

I would be desperate

and feel weak and ugly and helpless.

And all the time

I just needed you to set me free

to finally live my life in peace.

It's a pity you were too weak.

Rapunzel

She is not in a fairy tale

she is standing right in front of me

her beautiful dark hair entangling her whole tiny body.

Her smile seems to embrace the earth.

She smells of wisdom and curiosity at the same time. 

The way she moves makes the ground feel soft. 

Her heartbeat. So strong.

Her big eyes glow

showing the fire

deep inside her soul.

Her soul. So strong.

She is not stuck in a tower

she is free to chose

where to go.

Her will. So strong.

She is not in a fairy tale

she knows the world and it's evils.

Her eyes tell me

she knows what to do. 

Earthquake

Every once in a while

your life shakes

like an earthquake.

Facts you were certain of

suddenly are wrong

and things you never believed

prove to be true in front of your eyes.

So you stand there

looking at the debris

and you wonder

how to start cleaning up.

Melting

My whole 

Body aching

after 

Sleepless nights

I stagger through my 

Sloppy flat

searching for

Anything edible.

When I hear your 

Fitful cry

I sigh

and take you in my arms

and you smile.

This pure little innocent smile

that only babies, 

only you...

make my heart melt.

With my molten heart I 

hold you tight

and my sleep

and my hunger

and my pain

are gone.