Freedom

I was trapped inside a place that did not belong to me

I had no escape, no back door to run away.

I was stuck.

The wrong person stared at me when I looked into the mirror. 

People called my name and it sounded ugly. 

My name was ugly. 

I was ugly. 

I shaved desperately.

But there was one thing, I couldn't shave away...

I wish it would fall off, but there was no way to get rid of it.

It was the first thing I saw every morning. 

I hated it so much. 

It felt like a tumor or a parasite.

My outside was devouring my inside.

Whenever my inside tried to have a glance outside:

FREAK! FREAK! FREAK!

So my inside retreated, buried itself deeper inside, hid

in the darkest place,

the furthest away from the outside. 

 Like a Pearl hiding from it's own shell deep in the ocean

far away from the surface

waiting for it to be over.

But the monster haunted me,

it clutched on me like a tick. 

I took a blade

and killed the monster

and drowned in blood

and felt finally free.