And still

You've got a meeting

with the devil.

You know it's gonna hurt

you're soul is gonna burn

you're gonna feel miserable for a while

and the scars will remain.

You'll be stepping deep

it's gonna feel like a free fall.

You could choose not to meet him.

But you're curious

and you want to show him how strong you are

and how good you manage everything.

And it's gonna be almost unbearably painful

but you'll be smiling sweetly

and pretending

you're feeling so great,

trying so hard to show him 

that he can't do anything to wound you.

You're gonna leave this meeting

with your feet burning

and you're stone heart crumbling to sand

and your eyes bleeding, 

'cause the tears have gone long time ago

and with this fake frozen smile on your face.

You'll be licking your fresh wounds for so long...

and still

you want to meet the devil. 

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